From time to time during the 54 years I've been married to the husband we've had to have a 'Come to Jesus' talk. Bob is OCD about a lot of things. Once he becomes focused he never lets up. It's like being screwed in a vice. I stand it as long as I can and then it's time for a talk. It seems to me the subject of food comes up entirely too often in this house. After all we're talking about two people, not a houseful of hungry children.
These days I try to go with the flow of whatever keeps Bob calm, anxiety free, stress free, and happy. I figure he's my top priority. He turns 84 in a few days and he's not well. The problem with this concept is that I am NOT calm, anxiety free, stress free, and happy.
The man talks non-stop about food, cooking, grocery stores and 'supper.' I could care less about food, cooking, grocery stores and 'supper.' He never gives it a rest.
Monday was a trip to Costco. Tuesday was a trip to Safeway. This morning it was time for a 'Come to Jesus' talk. As is our tradition, I explained to him he has screwed the screws too tight. I can't breathe, time to loosen up some.
A) I cannot continue to be totally focused on food. I'm gaining weight and that is very bad. I'm also not eating what I'm supposed to eat as a diabetic. It has to stop. I have to focus now on my own health and diet, which is very different than his food focus.
B) Breakfast is set in stone here so I don't have to deal with that. I will continue to plan and help prepare the noon meal. Once the kitchen is cleaned up from that I'm through for the day. I do not want to hear another word about food.
C) Supper, as he calls it, we will prepare separately. The things I need to eat are not the things he likes to eat. There's plenty of food in the kitchen for him to prepare himself something light for his 'supper.' I'm pretty clear on what I need to eat, none of which he cares about.
D) I put a magnetic notepad on the refrigerator. He can note anything he wants from the grocery store and I will do the same.
E) Grocery shopping will be done the following way. We will shop the grocery store of his choice (excluding Costco). I will prepare a shopping list for him of all the foods we routinely buy and need to pick up that day. I will corner a small grocery cart and get him and his list started. I'll have a list of the things we don't routinely buy for me to pick up and I'll take a small cart and go the opposite way. We'll met back in the register area where I will unload groceries from both carts, and check out. We've done this before and it works pretty well. This week I set him off to do his shopping and slipped next door and got my hair cut, then came back and did my shopping and he was none the wiser.
F) Costco will be a once a month trip. He buys little food there, but lots of paper goods and that sort of thing. He knows exactly what he's going for and doesn't need my guidance. I will find a chair, sit and listen to an audible book while he shops. I don't care how long it takes him to shop, how slow he walks, or how long he stops to look around. As long as I'm not doing it I don't care. He can take the cart and putter around all afternoon if that's what floats his boat.
I've got to change the subject in this house. I realize he needs the social outing. I'm willing to give him that but we must not talk food 24/7.
I've got to get back to walking and thinking about something other than food. As a diabetic food has ceased to be a pleasure I live for, but rather a necessity for living. I know how I'm supposed to eat and do not want to think about food anymore than is necessary.
And that's how I feel about that!